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Hi uh, i feel grounded enough to make a blog post.

Im harvey, but call me hat please, I am a headmate within my OSDD system. I wanna write how im trying to find out my identity and role in the system.

Identity is confusing to me. I feel like no matter what i try on myself, it feels wrong. I dont have a gender but i feel like i should. If i had a gender i would be male, but i currently do not feel male.

I dont believe to identitfy with alterhumanity like my other headmates do. I do not identify as an animal but i am nonhuman. I do not identify as humans either, as i am an object. a sentient one at least.

I want to say that i like music, stuff like pearl jam, she wants revenge, stone temple pilots, and alice in chains. One of my headmates got me into pearl jam and stone temple pilots, i thank them a lot for that.

I do not know my role in the system, i feel useless because of that. I dont remember things from the bodies childhood either, i only remember being taken out of my universe and taken here. I believe i was killed and my soul is now here? Im not a walk-in though, others said i was formed by stress because of something stupid. and i was formed to cope with it. I have no idea what it was, but i think i have an idea what it was. It might have been.. a mutual of ours, blocked us for whatever reason? I dont see it as a big deal, but, others do.

uh anyway. is that all from me? idk. maybe. I might come back and edit this later, if i ever front again. Ive already heard that sometimes, if others dont have a fully formed identity, they never front again. Im a bit worried im one of those.. I hope im not.

EDIT: i wanted to add that im connected to old english a bit, not really, but i do use the old english he/him pronouns, aswell as modern english he/him. Im unsure why, maybe my source, even though my source is, somewhat modern. Its possibly based around the 1900s but im uneducated.